well i didnt come back on lastnight-sorry! Anyway i didnt have anything else to eat otehr than what i wrote lastnight that i was having for tea. @day i had NAUGHTY ME mcdonald chickennuggets from my daughters happymeal LOL...um and what else-oh 2 mince pies for tea-thats it-lots and lots of water. Still no walkin this week or swimming as its been too damn cold to do anything around here-if it aint raining the winds blowin a storm and you cant move anywhere.
Wel my mood is still pretty much the same today-i cant wait to get outta this deep dark hole-then maybe things will look better. Went as saw the ex today with daughter and she loved it-he was outside which means she could run around with him etc-but i get home and wish i hadnt done it cos it shows me how much i really do miss him! ARGH
I feel like my heart just aint there anymore-i know i love my daughters but at them oment i just dont feel like im doing everything i can for them-or to help them thru this time. My youngest has been sleeping with me everynight since her dad walked out-naughty i know but we both need it-she ends up crying for her daddy and i dont like the empty bed-so yeah-but she wakes up in themorning and the first thing she asks is "mummy, wheres daddy? will he be coming home today? Are you happy or sad today mummy?" those are questions a girl her age shouldnt have to ask.....
so well my weight loss may not be going so good this week im hopin to pick up next week. The week startin the 17th nov will b great-thats when i start aqua aerobics every morning and things....
Oh BTW my weigh days are monday mornings...myself, my mum and 2 aunties weigh every monday morning and text each other our weight loss/gain. so its good to have a few people around that do it aswell.
Am thinking i need tot ake a photo shortly-as my mum mentioned-even tho 1 of my aunties hasnt been loosing much weight lately-its obviously all moving around and stuff cos shes looking heaps different.
I cant wait to loose more weight-mums going to buy me a new outfit for every 10kgs i loose..and shes paying for me to get my hair cut again when im ready-i wana loose more weight in my face before i get it cut cos i want it really short.
Anyway better jit-girls are running havok in my house
will tlak again 2moro
laters
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Aw chick...hang in there. I can't imagine what it must be like for you with him walking out but remember its great to vent on here or TM!!
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